Another lonely night
this time spent coming home to cry
this time spent driving, and chain-smoking, and using the cigarette ember to center my eye
this time thinking it over I decide
I am pathetic.
a pathetic
being wincing weakly in blue night
pointing fingers at how I'd grown so strong
a pathetic
burdening of my right
knowing I was right all along
a pathetic
drown; drunken and drugged,
desperately delighting
During despair.
75$: just enough to go somewhere
but not when
no one to room with
best idea is 'keep drinkin'
its cold out and you've nothing.
Cold out in January
when my earth is shadowed
all the night spent
moon muttering with shaken teeth
(what ecstasy is left lingers low in crystal cups)
(and I've another moment of deja vu)
I'm alone in the bleak sea
with starlight murmurs glittering.
Loving the smell of coffee grinding...
the sun came up today
(even if I'm in limbo with repose)
so pure and direct
slipping into the corners of my eye
warming my cheeks especially those
teary ridges.
this time spent coming home to cry
this time spent driving, and chain-smoking, and using the cigarette ember to center my eye
this time thinking it over I decide
I am pathetic.
a pathetic
being wincing weakly in blue night
pointing fingers at how I'd grown so strong
a pathetic
burdening of my right
knowing I was right all along
a pathetic
drown; drunken and drugged,
desperately delighting
During despair.
75$: just enough to go somewhere
but not when
no one to room with
best idea is 'keep drinkin'
its cold out and you've nothing.
Cold out in January
when my earth is shadowed
all the night spent
moon muttering with shaken teeth
(what ecstasy is left lingers low in crystal cups)
(and I've another moment of deja vu)
I'm alone in the bleak sea
with starlight murmurs glittering.
Loving the smell of coffee grinding...
the sun came up today
(even if I'm in limbo with repose)
so pure and direct
slipping into the corners of my eye
warming my cheeks especially those
teary ridges.