A note posted for my mother:

My dearest mother, I know you loved
your son very much, you were always
so lovely and so kind and so sweet and 
you never did anything wrong, you should
never feel like it was your fault, know that
I love you dearly, know that you were always
a light in my dark moments. My greatest
regret is how you must now feel. I’m so 
sorry. You’re son, Ryan.

A note posted for my little sister:

Carly, my sweet little girl, the reason
I’m leaving is something you can’t 
understand.  I can’t explain. You never
were unsupportive, you have to believe
that will I always have great hopes for you,
you can’t let anyone stop you, not even
me. I just had a hard time for a long time,
and you know, but my example should not
be followed.  There were struggles in me
nobody knew but even until my passing
the thought of you always brought me to smile.

A note posted for my father and my brother:

I’m sure you aren’t thinking I’ve let you 
down. I feel like I have. You both were so
good to me, loving me despite our different 
philosophies.  You are both good human 
beings.  I love you both.